Venting

I wonder what happened to that sting woman I use to be, I miss her so much. She always knew what to do & what to say when hard times stubbled across her, making more money then I ever did and living better then I ever did but I'm still not happy. It scares me because I was never the type to cry I was so strong so strong until I met him, I can't seem to stop the tears not sure how long it will take me to move on but I deserve to be happy I've been through so much in life and for the one and ONLY person to who I thought loved me to turn their back on me it just hurts so much I can't turn to any one but God, the devil has been riding my back but I will continue to fight through this, I've been here before so I know I have the strength to be happy again !