Have faith

Just cried to my husband for the first time about not being pregnant. I guess my pride has gotten in the way the past few months, which has kept me from expressing to him how truly hurt I am when I see BFN's on all of the hpt I've taken. It's almost like one of those things where I was in denial-- like surelyyy I'll get pregnant the first 1-2 months of trying...
Nope. 
Even after vitamins, tonics, opks's, Preseed, etc. 
Nothing.
I am down on my knees at the foot of the cross just trying to understand how this will mold me into the being He would have me to be. You don't bare fruit on mountaintops, people. Stay humbled, stay motivated!