Sending a letter to my ex

My ex is currently doing basic training for the United States Army in Iowa. The worst decision of my life was ever letting him go so I messaged him mom and asked for the address of his base. She told me he was thinking about going to tell me goodbye before he left but he was scared I didn't want to see him. So hopefully after I send the letter explaining that us not being together has been the worst time of my life I can get the man of my dreams back! I just had to share with someone :)