It has been a little over a year since my oldest child passed away. He would've been twelve this year. Our family went through a great deal of suffering during his illness. Becoming pregnant was the last thing I ever expected to occur. My children are many years apart due to past conception issues. Anyhow, this pregnancy has been terrible in many aspects. I'm concerned about bringing a new life into the world after the grief I continue to experience. I also feel guilty about having another boy. People ask insensitive questions, specifically, if I believe this child is reincarnated. I consider myself a person of Faith. So, I don't ponder about why things happen/Ed. I simply focus on the future and present. But, I am finding it difficult to accept the future.