Monday sept 21 I woke up to the wildest kicks from my baby and I remember thinking she was going crazy in there, I even had her daddy reach over and feel them. I went back to sleep and then woke up and started my day. Around 5 o clock I remember thinking I hadn't really felt her all day so when I got home I drank something cold and laid down and she wouldn't move. I still felt optimistic but went to the er to check. They put the heartbeat monitor on my belly and nothing..... I remember feeling breathless and scared and I knew it was bad. They did an ultrasound and I kept asking if she was okay and the tech said nothing. I knew then that I had lost my beautiful girl, I couldn't breath, I couldn't speak, all I could do was cry and call for my baby to come back. My life was over. I left the er and called my dr right away as I was far from his office and he told me to go to the local hospital by my house the next day so I could confirm it with him and then we could make a plan. After I confirmed it the next morning, I begged them to induce me so I could start the grieving process without her in me. It took 2 days for me to have my beautiful angel and when she was born on the 23rd my life changed forever. I have never seen such a beautiful little girl. She was 2.7 pounds and 15 inches already and she had curly brown hair and brown eyes. She was the perfect mix of her daddy and I. Seeing her and knowing I had carried such a perfect being inside me for 7 months and knowing I would never see her first smile or her first tear, she will never nurse from my breast or lay in the comfort of my arms and feel secure hurt more than words can express. I thank god for her everyday but I also ask him why he had to take her from me. 

If all you ladies could say a prayer for me and if anyone has gone through this and can offer any kind of support I would appreciate this because this feeling of emptiness and loss is overwhelming and I feel like I can't get past it. 

Sorry for such a sad story but I thought there might be some ladies out there who could help me fight through with similar situations or even some positive words.