I know with what I'm gonna put here I'm gonna be judged and I'd hope not..

I wanna cry like.. I just wanna sit in a dark room curl up in a ball and cry.

I literally have thee best relationship ever he's my rock my best friend the man I cannot see myself without..

Were pregnant I'm over the moon happy..

I have a beautiful talented singing 5 year old who can blow you away with what she knows and her lungs..

I should be on cloud 9 we move in 15 days tmw.. my son who I'm pregnant with comes in just 23 weeks...

But I am not at all happy I'm depressed I can't move I can't clean I cannot do a dam thing.

I know I know! Hormones...

My daughter comes home and hugs me and says mama it's OK let me get you a drinky Lol my oj... love orange juice.. she does her own homework... she makes her own snacks... Lol she's independent

Best kid ever. I don't want her seeing me this way she even asked me why are you crying momma why are you so sad..

I can't tell her mommy's not happy and what I feel..

I've talk to my hubby he holds me he will let me cry he buys me flowers he'll rub my feet I thank him.. I feel some times a little better...

I've called my obgyn my primary Dr..

I've called my bff also.

I'm at a loss sometimes I wish I'd not wake up.

I push threw my day I make dinner for my kid take my meds for the baby do dishes make breakfast pack hubby's lunch..

Then he leaves... then I cry..

I sat alone in a bathtub and cried..

I cannot take much more of this.. it's emotions and pain BTW.. I'm always in pain so much pain.. ughhh

I know as I said women on here some are not at all nice I'm in a bad way as is.. if it's not nice just don't bother...

Hell you might be the reason I end it.

I'm gonna call my husband I'm gonna tell him I can't take much more..

I'm hopeful and I pray I get better..

I have nothing else left but to pray!

Thanks for listening comment if you wish hope you all have a great night I'm trying too..