Need advice please ladies 😭

So I have a low laying placenta so I'm not allowed sex or even an orgasm. Me and my partner haven't had sex for 3 weeks "due to bleeding badly" and midwife said not allowed for another 5 weeks. 
I already for fat and horrible and this makes me feel worse. I suddenly feel extremely depressed unattractive and hurt. My partner doesn't realise what I've given up for our little man. I know it will be worth it in the end but I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. 
He is still able to turn himself on, but I don't want him to I don't want him near me at the moment I want to tell him we need days apart. Am I being selfish? I need advice! My emotions are everywhere.