Being induced next week! 😱😱

I'm exactly 34 weeks today and a ftm and I just found out that I am going to be induced next week and I'm a total mess. I'm on lovenox because I have lupus anticoagulant and I have high blood pressure and to top it off my amniotic fluids are below average. I had a round of steroid shots about 6 weeks ago to help her lungs and my dr just gave me the first dose of steroid again today and another dose tomorrow to further help her lungs, but I'm so scared. I just want her healthy and I want to take her home with me when I get to go home but my dr said it was honestly a 50/50 chance of that happening. At my last ultrasound which was two days ago I was told she is about 4 pounds 7 ounces and I just feel like that's soo small. My dr is great and super supportive and is totally honest with me and I know he just wants what is best for me and her, he even has me doing the non stress test twice a week to make sure she's still good but I just wish I could make it to 36 weeks. Not barely making 35. Has anyone else recently or previously delivered at 34 weeks and some days and wants to share their story. Sorry about the rant but I can't even sleep bc I'm so worried and stressed and my husband keeps telling me to relax "that it's only a week before the goal I originally set for myself and her" but I feel like in baby cooking time a week is a lot of time! 😱😨