Feeling guilty....not super excited yet

So I'm feeling guilty because I feel like I should be over the moon excited. All I've wanted for years is a baby and we get blessed with one on our first try. But after a subchrionic hematoma at 7w4d (even though baby was good then and three days later at my follow up) all I have been is anxious and worried. I spotted for three weeks (all old blood) but I'm so worried I'm going to get to my 12 week appointment next Friday and hear bad news.   I haven't announced publicly yet (as in on social media) but family most close friends and coworkers know (rumors were starting to go around work). I can't wait to share the news of all is well but feel guilty for not being more excited now. Anyone else feel the same?