I just can't get excited about being pregnant and I feel so guilty about it.

Hello. Just wanted to vent and share my thoughts. I'm 10 weeks with baby #2. We tried for this baby for about 2 months and we're excited when we got our BFP. After weeks of debilitating nausea, constipation so bad my OBGYN said he has never prescribed so many meds for one patient, losing 11lbs due to not being able to stand food, sleepless nights, vomiting and dry heaving, I am just so done. I know it could be hormones, but I am not excited. I want this pregnancy to be over as soon as possible so I can have my body back. And I feel awful about feeling this way. I'm high risk so we've already had two ultrasound, and not even those were very exciting for me. My husband is frustrated because he "doesn't have his wife anymore" because I am basically bedridden and pass off childcare duties to him as soon as he gets home. I hate this so much and I am so worn down from feeling unbearably sick every second of every day for weeks on end.