Angry, sad, frustrated, & depressed

After TTC for what seems like forever (9 years), it's been decided that we're done trying for the foreseeable future due to health issues. We've been seeing doctors for treatment and jumping through insurance hoops for years. It just sucks and I hate it so much; the one thing I've always wanted to give my husband is a baby. Before someone bashes me, I have nothing against adoption or fostering. My aunts have adopted and my cousins are treated as if they were born into the family. We've been through the process for adoption and fostering only to be told we don't meet the requirements.