Devastated and Angry

I can't decide if I am heartbroken or completely angry as we are nearly positive I am have miscarriage. All my husband and I have wanted since we got married was to have a baby. And we finally got that positive test. Naturally I was nervous something would go wrong. My blood test proved that wrong. I felt at easy and finally became a little excited but still a little cautious. But then I saw red blood. After an ER visit I was told I had a threatened miscarriage

Everything has gotten worse and just waiting on blood work to tell us what we already know. It makes me so angry that people who don't want kids can have healthy pregnancies but there are so many of us that want a baby more than anything and lose them. I don't understand. I recently saw a woman post that she was thinking of abortion because the morning sickness was so bad. That honestly sickens me. I would take any pain in the world to have a baby. I have a new understanding and great sympathy for anyone that has been through this.