bad mom?

im just not into this pregnancy.... im into my son im just not into him being in my belly not since me an his dad cut ties...i just want my son already i just want my sleepless nights with him crying an i wanna hold him an kiss him i just dont want him in my belly anymore.... i love him an i love feeling him kick an move around but i just want my baby boy! im 22+2 due feb 13