I've been blessed with an amazing child already and feel guilty to be sad when some of you are trying for your first.  I understand the pain now - since my son I've had 2 miscarriages and this last miscarriage in August ripped my heart out since I actually held the fetus in my hand - although it looks like nothing to me that was everything and so painful....  I'm almost afraid; like my son is our miracle child but I refuse to give up hope... After this cycle we will try again, I will research more and try everything I can.

Baby dust to all you who are in the same boat as me and all of you who are anxiously awaiting those 2 lines this month. 

Love & Prayers from my family to all yours.