How do I get over trust issues because of a bad experience
Hello ladies, so I'm 16 and lost my virginity at 15(a month after my birthday). It was my first proper boyfriend and we had gotten together 5/6 months prior. I know it was so rushed and I regret it so much but I can't change it now, it was ridiculous. We were together for about 9 months and then broke up for a while; but remained on and off for a year and a half. We were still sleeping together and stuff too. Things turned nasty and he actually slept with two other girls to spite me, one of my friends and a girl that later became a friend knowing what she had done. While I was seeing him they were 'best friends'. We haven't spoken in 2/3 months. I've now heard that he is spreading rumours about how bad I was in bed and what I liked and stuff, but none of its true. I kept everything intimate that happened to myself and didn't tell anybody, and there is so much I could say to get him back but I'm not a spiteful person and despite what's happened don't want to hurt him. The little self confidence that I had is completely gone and I just feel stupid and down and used when I think of what's happened. I am over him, he's not worth wasting time on, but it's how I feel about myself. I feel ruined and I'm still young, wish I'd kept my legs shut. The thought of ever being remotely intimate with a guy again terrifies me, but I do like somebody for the first time in so long.
I literally trust nobody and I just really don't know what to do to bring myself back up again. Thankyou to anybody that's taken the time to read all this, any suggestions on how to feel better about myself?
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