While I was pregnant I could find a job to save my life. Of course, soon as I had my baby I got hired (my first interview was three weeks pp). In the time it took to hire me, I exclusively breastfed my son, pumping here and there to try to build up a stash for when I started work. And now that I'm working I try to pump at work to keep the milk flowing (I also breastfeed when I'm home). Thing is... Work has me doing double shifts. I'm gone from my baby from 5am to 6:30pm. As much as I try to pump and breastfeed, I'm drying up. My stash is gone and formula is now part of the equation. I feel guilty for leaving my baby for work, but we wouldn't be able to survive without his father and I both working. I'm frustrated and tired.