Okay sooooo since October 2 I've been feeling like getting pregnant right now is not for me. I've been feeling like alot of shit isn't for me right now. I just really haven't been feeling myself lately honestly, like for the past 2 years getting pregnant was all I thought about but now I don't know what I'm doing. I've been drinking for the past 2 weekends and I used to didn't even drink I've been just wanting to escape reality but then the next day everything is worse. I feel like it's no one I can talk to about these feelings. It has gotten so bad I have to leave my boyfriend after 8 years our friendship and 4 years of a relationship. Cause my feelings had even changed towards him. I'm so angry with him more then anything. He hasn't worked in 2 years and it irritates the hell out of me but he says he wants a child I think that's just him trying to trap me and think I will stay with him. I work 3 jobs and get up EVERY morning and he can't seem to get ONE. This shit is killing me. I just want some advice!!!!!!!