3 years!

J. • Baby Girl Due 10/2021 via FET
So, today is my 3 year wedding anniversary. On one hand It lights my life to walk every step with the most incredible man any woman can ask for. For that I am so blessed & so happy! I'm so in love with him. 
On the other hand it marks 3 years of ttc. 3 years! During this time we tried it the "old-fashion" way, had months of meds, vaginal sonograms, tons of blood work, all types of testing & prodding and everything in between. All for us to be right where we started. Only difference is I feel exhausted, defeated & like a failure. 
I'm so tired & I just want a child with my husband.