My husband and I were sitting on the couch. He drank all my ice water so I laid his head on my lap and tapped his nose gently with my pointer finger while my 5 year old got me more ice water. We are both laughing and smiling (I'm 8 months pregnant by the way) So my daughter gives me the ice water. I tell him I'm done playing and I want to drink my water but her continues playing with me while I have the water in my hand. He is trying to tickle me and I'm resisting asking him to wait so I can put my water down but he is getting more rough trying to lift my arm to tickle me. At this point I am serious and I don't want to spill the water all over the couch. He jerks me and I spill the water all over my lap and his face. He gets up so angry saying I was trying to drown him its water all over his face. I'm apologizing because it was an accident. I didn't mean to spill the water on his face. And I'm trying to explain this to him. The whole time I was telling him to wait, stop, let me put the water down because I knew it would spill. So he goes in the kitchen fills the same cup up with water comes back in the living room and throws the water cup and all directly at my face. I start crying and he is screaming why are you crying. I don't even explain things to him anymore because he always makes me feel like how I feel doesn't matter. So I took a shower and left. I came back home and he apologized. But I'm tired of apologies. I don't know how to leave. We have a house, two kids one on the way. I always say if a man hurts me I will leave but when you're in that situation its so hard. I don't even know where to start someone please help me.