I didn't really feel depressed before even with my newborn having two MRIs a CT scan and and ultrasound all done before leaving the hospital... He was born with a vascular malformation on the top of his head which took us to a specialist 2 hours away... His head is fine thank God. He still wasn't passing his hearing tests so I took him to get a diagnostic screening yesterday and we found out he has profound hearing loss in one ear and some hearing loss in the other... This means my sweet baby needs hearing aids probably for his whole life. I know it shouldn't be a big deal but I am devastated.... I've cried so much for him because I know how horrible other children can be and I never want him to feel left out. I feel like a failure, what did I do during my pregnancy to cause this? I don't feel like a good mother... I just wanted to protect him and I've let him down.