Nervous about testing

Well my glow has been telling me to wait until tomorrow to test but I'm nervous. Me and my fiance have been trying for a while and honestly I feel like giving up on becoming a mother. I want to give my other half something special and I feel incompetent of these things. So frustrated 😰 may not take the test. On top of this I have an irregular cycle and my cycle started last month and the same day it went away, then today I have been spotting lightly just started a few hrs ago nothing heavy and my cycle isn't due for another four to five days. I just don't know what to think anymore.