Can't sleep

Mache
Up thinking about my life and picturing my future of getting married and having kids. Realizing it may or may not happen 😢😢😢 its been almost 5 years since I've been on any kind of birth control and still have never been pregnant . Emotionally I'm a wreck right now seeing family and friends with growing families wondering when its going to happen to me. Been praying a lot hoping nothing is wrong with me or my s/o. Really trying to be patient and see what happens but I'm really on edge right now