I hate him

Kay
 I hate when my current boyfriend brings up my past abusive relationship to like hurt me 😔  and worst of all it does this is my second pregnancy and this one I haven't had one happy day at all since I found out I was pregnant he was put in jail like a week befor and now that he's out not even one month out and he just makes me despise everything I am !!!   I care about the baby but then again just thinking that he might be in my life makes me question what I really want I'm already 13 weeks and feeling uncertain about having the baby at this point in time breaks my heart 😖😖😖