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Ranting excuse the length!

Since I was 5 I've been hurt by men my flesh and blood my dad raped me at 5 years old the age of my now daughter sickens me...

At 16 I got pregnant... I was 8 weeks and 4 days.. My BF was 20 he came home drunk beat it out of me and beat me..

At 18 I married a man I thought I loved who was amazing.... Got pregnant at 19 he threw me into a wall I miscarried..

2 babies gone at 21 I have birth to a beautiful baby girl 5pds 6.2 oz 34weeks early.. I was divorced and happy... (Not ex husbands baby)

My daughters father was emotionally abusive and controlling... I left him 6 months later found a new man spent 4.5 years with him..

He threw a glass at my face that broke.. Then hit me he was arrested...

We broke up last year... I took a year off for me to get me together I dated a guy not really a BF gf thing just casual dates had fun..

I moved got on my own became stronger.. Accidentally found my now man been together for 7 months.. Friends for 9.5 months..

We're 6 months pregnant now with a baby boy I am happy and content he's amazing with my 5 year old and is so sweet calm funny outgoing just amazing!

He's literally my best friend we talk... Like how a brother and sister would and we don't fuck we make love... We never fight at all.. I'm at piece and genuinely happy...

But here's my rant as I said long I'm sorry...

My sister she's 23 I'm 27 is a lesbian.. No job no income has nothing.. Her gf who has section 8 and ssi pays for everything.. She's been cheating and disrespectful aid her and anytime my sister gets a job takes her money demands dates demands to be spoiled so on and so on... She's stolen from me my mom my grandmother..

And now my sister is at bare zero has zip nothing she's treating her like shit..

Me and my BF bought a house one room has my child in it other is for our soon to be sons arrival and our finished basement holds my mom who left her abusive BF and will be in her apartment soon..

I cannot take her on at all I can't work I'm on bed rest and my liscence is suspended due to passing out...

She's jealous and is making my life a fucking nightmare my mom says I don't want you to do anything but comes to me to ask what we can do?

Nothing! I can't do anything at all like I can't pay for her to live here and won't and I can't give her money!!

I feel stuck in the middle of crap I have nothing to do with..

I told my mom she isn't my child my kid is 5 not 23...

Time for her to grow up and do something...

But because I'm helping my mom and I'm taken care of in a certain sense she's upset with me and jealous saying I get myway and why do I get this and she can't...

After years of pain praying me being beaten hit raped and used I deserve a good man...

Nothing's handed to you! This wasn't handed to me!

I feel bad like I'm not allowed to be happy by any means like I'm not able to have a good life because I work to get what I need and want not just hope it's handed to me!

I'm so fed up honestly!!

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