How do I go on?

Shelly
I've had 4 miscarriages and my last one was 5 weeks ago. I didn't want to get out of bed. Then we were told of a baby boy who was about to be born and needed a home. My husband and I were over the moon. ....We got a horrible calling yesterday saying she went into labor and he was still born. My heart is broken into millions of pieces. :(