I been thinking about my future since I was 15 (16 now) and I did something well got token advantage of @ 13 and gotten an STD (chlamydia) my mom then like a year ago I think took me to the hospital cause I lied and told her I was kidnapped but when I was really with a boy so scared of getting in trouble that I lied so she took me anyways cause she's a mother nd I was still young with a boy and got the call for the doctor and I was so in shock that I believe I missed the part where the doctor asked did you get your medicine from a current location and all I remember me saying was yes and didn't hear her say pick up the medicine or anything so I had this disease for 3 years my first time getting the medicine for it was when I was 15 then that's when I heard "do you still use this current location for medicine" I said yes that time, I got the medicine took it went to the doctor and still had because I gave it to someone and felt with them again after taking the medicine after my doctor told me to tell anyone who I have sex with to wear a condom she said " no glove no love" didn't do because it feels way different stupidest reason one earth... Now my tubes might be blocked cause that STD does cause that type of stuff but I don't know for sure if they are all because I didn't scream or said anything when I was 13... I always wonder why my daddy didn't stay and protect his only daughter💔 been looking for a father figure the wrong way for sooo LONG, my child hood was filled with dolls, iPod, nail Polish, abuse, and SEX didn't have a normal child hood cause of my father but now I probably won't be able to have any KIDS of my own now I'm thinking of adoption because my future don't look to bright since my pass wasn't but I want to experience the baby showers and the big belly and the going into labor but I thought I can still have baby shower without being pregnant but it won't be the same... I want to adopt if I have to but I want my OWN😔

My life is OVER I won't be able to give my future husband his own biological child I always think about that💔