The thing is, I'm so terrified and feel like I have no one to talk to. I don't have much family, my mom passed away 2 years ago, and my husband seems very distant about anything related to this pregnancy. My mother in law (who I adore and would like to be close to and would kill to have a grandchild) seems to only go through my husband when it comes to anything with this pregnancy which leaves me clueless and feeling alone when I would like to be sharing this happy time. 

I don't mean to complain. This baby is all I think and worry about now 24/7. Every second is dedicated to thinking and daydreaming. I just wish I could have my mom here again to reassure me and let me be my crazy worrying self