I was scared at first too but I got use it. the first time I rode I was to shy to even look at him, so while I was on top he told me not to be scared and helped me move, now I love riding. as far as blowjobs, take it slow and try not to look at him, focus on getting it. then after you do it often.. you'll be able to look at him and be great lol

Watch porn and up those blow job skills, if being on top is awkward make a sexy pose in doggy style 😉