Writing this makes me feel so guilty as it is, but I don't know what to do..

I love this little baby boy so much, he is perfect I'm sure.

My partner and I were ttc for 2 years.. now I'm 31 weeks.

I look at photos of new borns being held by their mums and it makes me uncomfortable.

I feel like as soon as he is out of my tummy, I will feel very disconnected from him.

The dad and I are still together and I've never told anyone this..

But I just feel like I won't love baby once he is here.

Anyone else feel this way?