This is a long post but need to share.

I am busy planning my wedding and thinking about starting a family. Find myself needing some advice and that's when it hits me. My mum is not there anymore.

My mum passed away nearly 3 years ago aged 42 of lymphoma. Cancer stole her away from me and my 2 brothers. I was 20, my brothers aged 12 and 22.

I cry so much it hurts. My so holds me and says " I don't know what to say but she would be proud of where and who you are now "

I am scared in case the same happens to my children.

But then I remember what my mum said to me just before she passed.

" you are a beautiful, strong woman and you have made me so proud"

I have had my dark moments and my best moments since she has passed.

Now when I want to talk to her I talk to the stars, as I believe our loved ones are always with us in our hearts.