10 days late negative test

Christina
Took 2 test 1 HT abs one blood both negative felling really sad and a little depressed. I feel like it's my fault. Like i have completely lost all control we have been trying for 4 years now ever since I got off birth control. I just I don't know sorry this so dark I just needed to get it off my chest and I don't know how DH world take it.