My fifth loss...3rd one this year! I don't know how I can keep doing this! All I ask for is one more baby, just one...for my husband and I to share. I have 3 from a previous marriage and never had any trouble conceiving either of them. I lost one with the ex but was pregnant with my youngest the next month and didn't have a single issue. Why can't it happen now? I know I'm older (will be 35 Thursday) but I just can't understand it. I just found out December 1st I was pregnant again, was so excited to find out right before my birthday...then Sunday started spotting and am officially miscarrying with clots and heavy bleeding. Really guess I have no choice but to go to a dr and see what the issue may be since I lost one in February, April and now this one. I don't even wanna try anymore because I can't take this pain, but I'd give anything to hold a baby in my arms right now. 😢 Sorry if this is nothing but a bunch of rambling...I just feel so lost at the moment.