Terrified

Tiana
I was diagnosed with a blighted ovum last week at my ultrasound. I thought we'd do a D&C, but my hcg levels rose some, so my doctor made me wait until this week to redo the ultrasound. I had it yesterday, and everything is the same. My hcg dropped from 38,000 last week to 8,000. They prescribed the medicine to help it come out (I have to go get it now). I'm terrified. I have two kids (14 & 5) and I don't want to be home bleeding that much and in that kind of pain. I have to take my son to get the bus tomorrow and Friday. And I don't want to see/feel it come out. I've read some accounts of the process and.......I can't. I don't want to wait and continue with this nausea and fatigue either. I don't know what to do. No one knew I was pregnant except my doctors, and I don't want to tell anyone now. I'm pretty introverted. I'm OK emotionally about the pregnancy ending, but this process is starting to freak me out. Ugh.