Fed up!!!

I have always been the first to speak my mind. It gets me in trouble with friends, family, and colleagues.  There is something I want to tell my best friend but I can't.  I'm so sick of her fake kindness and nasty attitude if that makes sense. I'm going through something that's very personal and she knows about it.  I can't expect her to get a clue because she is so Into herself it's ridiculous.  But I can tell when she does reach out that it's fake.  I really want to tell her to F*%^ off.  Maybe by next week I will be to that point and just do it. 😕