I just needed to post a farewell note to my little Leo

Lily • Doula and Lactation Consultant

Leo,

I have never experienced such joy as when I knew you were first inside me. You made me feel such depths, I even wrote you a couple songs. When the cramping starting I prayed every day for your safety and begged God to let me trade anything to have you be alive, healthy and in my arms one day, and I am not even religious. When I saw your heartbeat at 7 weeks my hopes were lifted so high, but in the follow up at 8 weeks there was no more the beating of life. Our time together was brief, but in that snippet of time I can say that I loved you immensely and I was your mother. I wish I could have protected you, but sometimes things aren't always in my control. If they were you would be here. Me and your daddy wanted you so desperately, and loved you so much. It will take me a while to learn to live in a world where you no longer exist. I will never forget you, and thank you for giving me the gift of experiencing your brief life, and I will take this and not wallow in sadness, but become stronger for it. You will always have my greatest love, forever and always. I will meet you again one day, and then I will hold you in my arms.

In memory of Leo Colvin, 8 weeks, conceived on November 1st, left this world December 15th.