Lingerie Letdown

On Christmas eve, hubby's b-day and fertile day, I got dressed up cute in a sexy Christmas lingerie I bought for him. Since his b-day is Christmas eve, I've always imagined myself doing this. I muster up the courage, smiled real big and begin to kiss him for him to look at me and say I'm not feeling good. I cried, right there in front of him. I felt embarassed and unattractive. He comforted me shortly and then took a nap. We talked about it later, but I honestly don't feel any better about the situation. I'm having nightmares that he doesn't love me and wants to leave me. Also, I'm 27 he's 28 and he always tired. We have sex about 2 a month and that with us ttc!! Feeling frustrated, sad, lost, and lonely. 😞