Yes I'm very happy that we're blessed with a child. Yes I wanted this. My first child was easy, I was sick a little and had bad heartburn. That's it. I look back and think, wow I loved being pregnant, it was so magical. I loved it all.

This time, I can't eat anything. Everything makes me sick. My heartburn is unbelievable. I can't sleep at night. The medicine I'm taking, diclegis, worked at first but now not so much. I throw up every night. I'm literally so unhappy. I don't remember this from last time.

I want to be happy, but how can I when I'm constantly so sick?

A little side note, I do fully enjoy watching food network since I can't eat it myself, I like watching other people eat good food hahaha.