Sad 😕😕 when does it get easier?

Theresa
It seems like the whole world is pregnant and I can't even carry a baby. Lost 2 baby girls, one in July and one in December. It makes me feel like a failure. I'm sad most days and cry at seeing pregnant women or babies. I got my first period yesterday after having a D&C a few weeks ago. I'm so emotional. We wanted to wait awhile to try again. But now I'm thinking I don't want to. I just want a baby so badly. I feel like a failure. 
What if I lose yet another child, will I just be gone in my emotions even longer?  Not to mention both losses are totally different. The doctor said I'm fine I just have bad luck. I lost my daughter Zoey at 21 weeks due to my cervix thinning out and went into preterm labor. And I lost Amelia due to Turner syndrome at 3 months. It's where The baby is missing a chromosome and happens during cell division. Doctor said its so rare.Â