Very embarrassed but have to share with someone

Me and my family shop at Nordstrom and rack all the time . It's one our favorite places . My coworker has been telling me that she steals little things from there all the time . I judged her for that because she makes good money . Last summer I was in Nordstrom and saw a perfume for my husband which I loved and I wanted it for my husband , it was 76 $ . But I know I couldn't afford it and my husband would be pissed at me if bought it . So I grabbed it... Put it in my purse . Then I shopped around bought couple necessary things for my husband and flip flips for me and left . There was no security sound when I was leaving .  At the door they stopped me and then I was so nervous I don't remember anything . They didn't call cops but questioned me for 2 hours and filmed my confession . I deeply regret it and I am beyond sorry . 

I paid the fee for shoplifting ( 200$) I was giving piano lessons as a temp . Now they have me 2 years of restriction from entering any of their stores at any location . I cannot even enter the mall through their door. I haven't told anyone , especially my husband, because I know he will blame himself . But it's not his fault ! 

I'm having difficulties to avoid the store my mil asks me to go there my husband and my mom , now my husband received a 200$ gift card for his birthday from there and he told me to use it because I haven't bought anything for Myself for so long . I want to cry because I don't deserve it. 

I just want to know if I can do something about not being able to enter the store because it's hard for me keep sneaking and coming up with excuses why I can't go there . 

2 years is a lot of time .i judged my coworker now I'm the same .  Thank you all for reading . All I can say shoplifting is bad don't make mistakes I made . 

Update : called the civil services they said 2 years are not negotiable and that they will detect me as soon as I enter any of their locations and will press charges. No online shopping either .