I honestly don't know how I feel if this month I don't get pregnant

We've been trying for about a year now before that we weren't trying but we also weren't preventing it I've been pregnant twice but had early miscarriage or chemical pregnancy as some people call it this month we have the deed every other day and then every day during my fertile period I've ate the pineapple drink the pomegranate juice been taking my prenatals and this month we decided to try preseed I just feel like this is our month I'm expecting to become pregnant and I'm currently 5 days past ovulation so this next week is going to drag by and my hopes are very high and I honestly don't know how I'm going to feel if my period comes and no baby