Dilemma

Cynthia
So my boyfriend of 8 yrs, was happy at first to hear the news but now once i showed him the soni he freaked out and is telling me to not have it. I dont want to. Financially right now were in a really tough spot and i will not lie and say that this couldnt have been the worst time but it happened ive been pg before been there done the miscarried had 3 abortions and i cant do it, i dont want to do, i dont want to force him into anything and he does make valid points as far as how things are going right financally. Hes not making money like he used to so my income is pretty much the only stable one. Im not finished with college yet and hate the job im currently at. On top of the fact that i totaled the car from falling asleep behind the wheel which we now have to gwt another one. I told him that i understand where he is coming from but im willing to do what i have to give my kid the world, he has one other son who live with his mother in fl and he doesnt see him much. He does what he can and by anymeans is no dead beat but hes making it seem like getting an abortion is birthcontrol i tried explaining to him the mental physical and emotional stress it has on a woman that men dont fo thru it as intensly as a female does. But is no way to handle a situation because he feels were not ready or bc hes scared of bringing a child into the world the way that things are right now. Things could have been great like they were 5 months ago gotten pregnant and then just got into a situation that put us in a position that we're in now and way further and more stressed, i dont want to go to my mom yet bc i want to wait at least 3 months before i tell fam and friends but idk i dont want to wait to long. I want this baby and hes making me doubt if i can handle this on my own 😳