I hate my life!!

I'm so damn immature with love it isn't funny. I think anyone that gives me attention is the automatic one. I'm 19 with a 9 month old baby girl and I'm currently going through a divorce cuz my daughters father is a HOE!!! I'm now talking to two different guys one is very pushy to have sex (which I am having sex with him) the other one is sweet and wants to wait and I really like him. He's a Christian and I use to be a Christian but I really strayed. I really like both and i don't know I guess I know who I like the most but it's so hard to let the first guy go because he was there for me when I found out my husband was cheating and he likes me a lot but he is also torn between me and is ex which gives me even more reason to stop everything with him. But even though he's got his issues he's amazing as well and the sex omg is to die for!!! But I know that's not how I'm suppose to live and I want to get back into church with the second guy I really feel like he's the better choice anyone have any advice? I'm stupid I know! Please be brutal and help me realize what I need to do!!