Just learned last night my 21 year old cousin is pregnant with her boyfriend who they are constantly breaking up and getting back together with. She lives at home, and neither of them have very lucrative careers. I'm the oldest of all the grandchildren and she's 5th in line. So she gets to have the first great grandchild. My other cousin who was married last May who is a big drinker skipped drinking this past family party and canceled her boxing membership she was going to with my sister and lied and said its because she has to work late (she's a receptionist)?? So she is definitely pregnant too. I feel like I've lost it mentality. I'm helpless. It's such an uncontrollable situation that even people around me don't know what to say anymore including my mom. I'm just at a loss. I feel like I've thrown my hands up in the air and I just don't give a shit about anything anymore. We are taking this month off because in traveling out your way Vanessa for business and I need to take Xanax to fly. My husband is meeting me out there mid way through and then we are going to stay a couple extra days. So at least that will be nice. My 30th birthday is just around the corner too. Ashley best of luck in your second <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> cycle! This has to be it! And Vanessa I'll be thinking of you on the 29th!