My short story

Natalie • Crying helps me slow down the weight to life's problems
Suddenly something inside me broke the facade of a smile I've been putting on for him, and the betrayal of my best friend. 
I couldnt believe it.
The day went on as usual in the office  I only got three hours of my work done. All I could think about was them. Together.
When I drove home shortly after I slumped up to my room. I stopped it was as if time slowed down the room was spinning and I could feel it coming up and out of my throat. It burned. 
I swallowed it down and layed down on my bed. Then there was this wave of anger confusion, frustration.
I got up and started tearing things down. It got so bad that I went as far to break the lightbulbs to my lamps. 
I screamed in frustration. "To him! I lost it to him. On this bed!" I screamed 
Again. This time I punched the wall
making sure that there was a hole in the wall and the wall paper. 
I noticed my hand growing redder the 
More I destroyed my own bedroom. 
Suddenly I broke one of lamps and my knuckles split open to the bone. Kneeled down and cried. Gripping myself sides until I could feel my nails digging into me. I sat there in confusion. 
Was this really me? 
Was I jealous over a guy, who I wanted to date for two years? I couldn't swallow the fact that I waited too long to ask him.