Need some positivity...

My fiancé and I had a miscarriage in October 2015 - first baby together. We lost our baby a week before our 12 week scan. We had a scan at 7 weeks coz we thought we were further along. We had a silent miscarriage. It wasn't until I noticed a small amount of blood (around when I would have been due on) that worried me and got checked out. We find out just a month later that his twin sister pregnant and has had her second scan today. I just makes me feel that could have been us. I am taking the Seven Seas trying for a baby pills and have had two periods since the miscarriage. Which I am grateful for to know my periods are getting back to normal although not on the same day each month. Just feel so sad and wish we were still pregnant. I don't think feeling like this will help us get pregnant but it's all I think about 🕊 I am such a good person don't know why it happened to me and then I think it happened for a reason xxx