To drink or not ???

Anabel • 2 healthy pregnancies, youngest child is 7. Had mirena for 5yrs. Been TTC for over 1.5 yrs got pregnant in Sept found out on 10.22.15 had 1st miscarriage bc his lil heart stopped.I was almost 10 wks
Am waiting for AF shld b here tomorrow or day after I took pregnancy test no sore boobs nothing and test came negative. Been waiting for my rainbow after 1st ever miscarriage at end of October. I am stressed that I still am not pregnant after 2 yrs trying what is up. Finally I got regular periods got pregnant and then lost him n longing to have one again. And after negative test I just want few drinks. Last time I knew not to drink I had feeling not to sore boobs and sure enough positive test don't feel that now so shld I have few drinks tonight or best to wait until she is actually here??