Thank you for making my life a living hell. I can't remember what it feels like to be loved or cared about. You've told me yourself you don't love me, months later we are still, somehow, together. You have never really cared about me ever, all the times I've cried in front of you and you just turn over and tell me to fuck off makes me wonder if you every actually loved me or if that was just an excuse for sex. And that abortion... I never wanted it. I told you how against it I was and how adoption or keeping it were better options but you just threw the money at me and I came home empty handed. Not once since have you asked me if I'm okay. I've asked you to come see me in hospital once over the past few days that I've been in here because of YOU but you're "too tired". I honestly hate you but we both know that I can't leave you. I have no one else. I have nothing at all and it's like you take advantage of that. All you ever do is put me down and I can't handle it anymore. Everything is my fault and you're always so innocent. One day I'm going to have the strength to end it all but don't you dare say you didn't see it coming because I try tell you how I feel but I just cop shit from you for it. Don't you dare act like you love me once I'm gone for good because you wanted this even more than I do.