Back onto contraception for me

It's over. Ttc made things worse. My partner begged for me to come off contraception so we could be a family and as soon as it came out our sex life went down the pan... I feel unloved and not good enough! He says he's tired so doesn't want sex which has never been the case in the past! I tried so hard tracking doing opk tests etc (he didn't know how hard I was trying to give him what he wanted) and it all back fired and ended up me being the one wanting a child... It took me a year to get off contraception and make the right decision which is what hurts the most....