Depression

So with my last pregnancy I found out I had HPV and I just fell into this hole o felt dirty, damaged goods and just down right disgusting I didn't enjoy my pregnancy no matter how much I tried to crawl out if that hole them afterwards I had horrible postpartum depression I seriously let myself go like it was just unexplainable. Well with this one I'm happy me and my hubby are in the best place we have ever been before even to better than the honey moon stage and I'm starting to feel guilty because I feel so good this time amd I didn't last time. Ugh I guess it's just hormones making me sensitive now and I'm getting scared I will fall into that whole again! Ugh! !!!!