I'm not sure what group this should go in, so if this is wrong I'm sorry.

I just got home from my friend's Baby shower. She's due 2/23. We got pregnant together. I would be due 2/21, but miscarried in August. I'm so happy for her, but so sad and upset about my own situation. DH is sad and he wants to help, but I can't think of anything that might help, so he's sort of at a loss except for just being as comforting as he can. I hate that this makes me sad and kind of jealous. I've seen people on here get pregnant, miscarry, and get pregnant again since my miscarriage. I don't like it, but in a way I hate them. Why was it so easy for them? Why did we try for 3 years only to have it ripped away from us in the most excruciatingly painful experience of my entire life? Why can't it just happen again? All questions I'll never know the answer to. Depression hurts more than people might think. All I want to do is sleep. I think I'll sleep now.